I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul

Easter.  Jesus dying for your sins, getting resurrected. It makes other problems in life seem pretty insignificant when you compare them to that, but there's still stuff I can't get out of my mind.  I live in San Diego now which is pretty close to paradise.  I have a spectacular job at Intuit.  I also have a few friends out here that are pretty awesome.  All that is great, but what good is any of it if you don't have anyone to share it with?

I miss all of my friends now scattered all over the planet.  I hope you are all doing well!

The title: Radiohead - Creep

I fear that I'm ordinary, just like everyone

Here's an update on my gym activity.  For a week I went to the gym about 3 hours a day.  I was feeling fantastic and when I stepped on the scale the following Monday I had lost 3 pounds.  On Jan 9th my dad showed up for a visit and left yesterday.  We had an amazing time, but man did we eat a lot of excellent food.  So now I am worse off than when I started haha.  I have been sick most of this week and I still am.  Monday I should be back to normal and will be back to my ambitious 3 hours a day.

I ordered a TV this week.  I really wanted a Samsung PN63C8000, but the crazy price of $3100 was just way beyond reasonable.  I settled on a PN58C8000 that I found for $1700, which is still a ton of money, but for a 5 inch difference is is a much better price.  Now all I need is a couch.  I've been planning to buy a couch for like 6 months now, but I keep putting it off.

The title: Smashing Pumpkins - Muzzle

Will you feel better, better, better. Will you feel anything at all?

This morning I began the attempt to get back to the old me.  The old me who is active all the time.  I hit the gym for an hour on the elliptical, and now I am eating some oatmeal with peaches (not the stuff from a packet).  I weighed in this morning at 245 pounds, but I'm not going to check that again for a week so I don;t get depressed about not making any progress.  Corinne, if you are reading this, I didn't steal anyone's machine, the gym was pretty close to empty ;)

I am really excited for work this week.  I can't wait to get in there and get stuff done.

My dad will be here in one week, and that is going to be so awesome!  I am not sure what he is going to do while I am at work every day, but at least he can drive my car around with brand new tires on it.

The title: Regina Spektor - Better

Lights will guide you home

I have returned to San Diego!  I got to see a lot of people that I didn't expect I'd get the chance to see, and yet there were still more people I hoped to see that I missed. 

I got to have lunch with my friend Dave from T&R and he is doing fantastic.  He got a road bike and has been riding all over the place and meeting new people.  I have been thinking about getting a road bike for a long time, but I was always afraid of the traffic.  Here in Escondido it might not be so bad.  The only problem I have is that I don't know anything about road bikes. 

Before I left my friend Morgan came over to visit.  I haven't seen her in years.  So many years in fact that she wasn't done growing when I saw her last and I was surprised to see that she's almost 6 feet tall.  Tall and absolutely beautiful.  I had such a fun time visiting with her.  We laughed so much that my cheeks hurt haha.  I am hoping to convince her to come out to visit, or maybe I will have to fly back to MA to see her.

Seeing Morgan got me thinking about my friend Marcy (which is how I met Morgan).  Marcy lives about an hour north of where I live in Cali.  I have been here since May and never met up with her, so I texted her tonight and told her that we need to soon.  She agreed, and we are going to make that happen.

Since it is the new year I am going to set some goals, cause goals are good, and that's what people do in the new year.  The only goal that I am pretty determined to hit is to lose 50 pounds by about June.  I am currently just under 250 pounds.  I am not sure if I am going to get a road bike or just hit the gym more, but I am definitely going to try to exercise in some way Monday through Saturday every week.

The title: Coldplay - Fix You